I Find Pokemon Soothing

I feel that it's a symptom of that fine line between brilliance and insanity that I need to do exceedingly stupid things to calm my nerves.
Only recently, I found an old Game Boy Colour version of Pokemon Silver in my "jewelry" box (and by jewelry, i mean a sort of childish assortment of bottle caps, broken friendship bracelets and random beads). I was in a situation of extreme mental fatigue - I had just ran all over town looking for a key for my work, all the while stressing about the potential housing situation that was being explored in Toronto by members of my close circle of friends and lovers. Tension abounded and I was trying like fuck not to smoke. And along came this little game. So I played it, and lo and behold, my problems dissolved into the intense task of training an assortment of mythical creatures to fight other mythical creatures in a small children's game. Much like the allure of a four-year old friend of mine's tv shows (especially Backyardigans, because it doesn't stress me out with lame-o gender and racial roles like Timothy Goes To School and Winx club and etc. tend to), this game is simple and innocent enough, with enough depth and choice in it to keep me captivated.
Sometimes the best thing to do is to take a couple steps back from the time you're meant to be existing in.

In the spirit of the above, and for the same reason, here is a cheesy song I wrote that very same day. It sounds like a country song, adding to the cheese value of the thing, but forgive me. I thought I should share nonetheless:

my soul has been abused til it's black and blue
i've stepped on so many heads i've got blood on my shoes
i've wandered all over what this is about
but i know that i know nothing inside and out

on days like today, i feel like everything's alright
all those loose ends seem to tie themselves tight
i know that tomorrow won't feel like today
but right now i guess that i think that's okay

yesterday i cried three separate times
felt like i'd lost all my sense and my dimes
i thought maybe i'd love you until i died
but i changed my mind every time that i tried
i wanted to be stronger for you and for me
be mature and understanding like you want me to be
but i'm young still and foolish - i feel angry and sad
even more so when you tell me there's someone less bad

but on days like today i feel like everything's alright
all those loose ends seem to tie themselves tight
i know that tomorrow won't feel like today
but right now i guess i think that'll be okay

tomorrow i'll tell you that it just isn't fair
you've got too many people all up in your hair
too many people being better to you
just because i'm so different - to you, so brand new
i want you all to myself, all the good and the bad
it's not fair you go elsewhere when you're feeling sad
i feel out of control and like i'm useless to you
but on a day like today i know that's not true

on days like today i feel like everything's alright
i just want to surrender without any fight
wanna lay down beside you and turn off the light
wanna hold your heart close all through the night
cuz i know that tomorrow won't feel like today
but i'm hoping you're thinking that that'll be okay

yes folks, only the highest and stinkiest quality of cheese here at the Gadfli this fine pre-exam midmorning. can't go wrong there, because going wrong is the whole frigging point.
anyway, tata for now.